Post coaching high

I wonder if other coaches experience this post coaching high that I seem to be on tonight. It was and still is electric. This feeling that you get when girls are having a blast while working out. I haven't felt it this strong in a good while.

Is it the endorphins of working out? Or is that you are serving others in a way that helps them be better with their health, body, and mind. When I'm being a nurse, I think I'm helping people, but sometimes it feels an awful like being a glorified pill pusher. I always encourage my patients to live a healthier life but sometimes it's like pulling teeth. Someone comes in because they can't breathe. You encourage them to stop smoking but they really just want you to get them over this hump at this moment. When they get home, they will light that cigarette again. But when you're coaching, it's different. It's this real thing. You're helping mold people and their way of looking at their wellbeing. They WANT knowledge about quinoa or essential vitamins and how to squat properly without hurting themselves. They want to be pre emptive about their health and aging - physical, emotional and spiritually. They don't want to stick a bandaid on and be better just for this session. It amazes me how one class can just revive me.

I want more! Let me help you. Let me make you move. I want more. I'm thirsty for more of this healthy lifestyle. Give me more!!!

Getting back into things

Last week I was flu ridden.. it was really just terrible and I feel like it's a waste of time. I know sickness doesn't discriminate or care if I think it's a waste of time but I have goals to hit damnit! Thursday was particularly bad with the coughing and just barely able to eat.

I'm back now. I took a double class tonight but still holding back just a tad. The cough is lingering and I don't know if I'm going to be 100% for Friday. I'm co-coaching a 90 minute dance workout for our Kaia Grand Re-opening. I don't know if I should invite Ry. It won't have a ton of guys and it's also dance. But I also want him to see me coach. He will probably say no. But I guess I won't know unless I ask.

Seems like a sensitive topic. I want people to see me coach but I also don't want to be judged. Is that strange? I want to show people my passion but I also don't want to be judged about it. Especially by Ry.

I want him to be proud but I don't want him to think its dumb. 🤣 we shall see.

Pull-ups

It was "benchmark" day today AKA fit test day.. which is reworded so people aren't getting as anxious about getting tested. It is what it is. Pullups today.. 50 pullups in 3:16. 30 on the purple band and 20 on the TRX as rows. I gave myself a break from pullups as as goal from last BRIK. I've definitely regressed as last BRIK I was on the black band or no band. But w anything, if you don't practice you get rusty. We shall conquer them another day. I'll try to keep up w my 10 daily from Ry's pullup contraption. If I ever clean out the Christmas decorations, I'll hang my yoga swing that I got for Christmas in our living room. My mom will have a heart attack if she ever saw it. It would technically be between dining area and living room. I need to get on that! Urgency!

Begin again

Yesterday morning was BRIK orientation. It's my 16th one to date. The quote Scarlett read really hit home.. I don't quite remember the wording but essentially it was if you keep doing the same thing, you won't get anywhere new. I feel like each BRIK is blending w the last. So after orientation, I went to kickboxing which is another one of my loves. They were just signing people up for the 6 week challenge. Which I don't even know why I did it, but I said 'fuck it' and signed up for the challenge. I was hungry and sweaty but who knows what the hell I've gotten myself into. Jess made us write down our pre-written affirmations repeating the words "I'm badass" at least 3 times and I mostly believe it. Fake it til you make it right? Then it took awhile but got before pictures taken. Dru took them and tried to make me feel less awkward about it. I felt exposed. I shouldn't be weird about it. I tell women they need to have positive dialogue with regards to their bodies - why is it so hard to believe it myself to my own body (or at least my belly). Then another hour of waiting for Jess to have a one on one. I feel like she shouldn't be the only one doing those but its her baby to champion.

To new beginnings. And to finishing them with full speed. Just as swiftly and with urgency as I've started. "Urgency" is going to be my mantra for this year. Live it like it's going to be my last.